Scanning the bookshelf for you know,
Books.
At the corner of my eyes,
I saw this incredible tall guy.
So I turned my head to have a better look at him
And he is no other than my primary school friend
That I had a crush on when I was 11years old.
The first thing that came to my mind was:
He is so tall!
The next was:
And he is hotter than before!
And he is hotter than before!
We both stare at each other in shock,
I wonder what was he thinking about.
I cleared my throat and said
"Hey,"
"Hey."
His voice.
It became oh so deep!
"Um... So.."
"How are ya?"
"Fine, I guess. You?"
"Fine."
"Um. So... How's school?"
"Um. So... How's school?"
This is getting awkward.
"Oh you know, high school."
"Yeah."
Awkward!
"So, you came here alone?"
"Kinda. My mom's at the Curve."
I said and smile.
God!
I wish I'm taller.
I wish I'm taller.
I wondered if my hair is messy.
I hope there's nothing stuck on my teeth.
Why are my legs shaking?
Gah!
"Oh, cool."
"So, what are you doing here?"
God!
That is like the lamest question ever!
Obviously he came here to buy books!
"Oh, to buy a present for my sister.
She's in Canada."
Oh.
"Oh."
Why can't I say something more
Interesting?
Why is my heart pounding to hard?
"So how's your sister?"
"Um.. Older or younger?"
"Younger."
"Isn't she the one that chased you around?"
"Haha, yeah. I miss her."
Shit!
Should have said: I miss you.
Stupid!
Stupid!
He shifted his weight.
I wanna ran away from this embarrassment
But I want to stay.
I want to hug him.
I miss him oh so much!
I wanted his number
So I could text him all day long.
I want to sit down and talk to him
Like we used to before.
Instead,
I stood there like a dummy,
Looking at his smooth face.
"Um..."
He said.
He said.
"Uh. So, how are ya?"
Shit!
Why'd I asked the same question?
Oh my God!
He smiled at my question.
Oh that smile!
That sweet smile.
I miss that smile.
"Fine."
We stood there for like a minute or two.
"Um.. So..."
"So..."
Faster make a conversation!
Make a long one so he could stay longer!
"Um.. See you..."
Shit!
Shit!
No!
No!
Wait.
I miss you!
Did I say that out loud?
"Around?"
I guess not.
"Yeah, see you around."
Damn.
"Bye."
"Bye..."
I
Hate
Myself
A
Lot!
I saw him walk towards the counter.
Maybe I should snatch a book and line up behind him.
Should I?
Chickened out.
I wanted his number oh so bad.
And I lost my opportunity.
Should have said,
"Hey, for old friends sake. Lets keep in touch."
Instead.
I chickened out.
Stupid me.
Stupid shy me.
Stupid!
Stupid!
I watch him walk away.
Again.
Gone.
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